For The Life of Me

Category: What’s on my my mind.

  • Enough!

    Ok, this is liable to turn into a full blown rant, and for that I apologize. I’ve been holding it in, holding it back for a very long time….. Ok, So we all know that I’m living with my “foster dad”‘s family’s house…what you don’t know is his wife has a daughter with certain disabilities.…

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  • Rewind..

    BOOM. Self-destruct. It’s what I do best. So there’s this guy that came across me on Instagram. Ever fall for someone without them saying a word? Yeah…it’s like that. One look at him, and I was gone…and I fought it so hard. Right up until he shared a vid of him and his little girl…

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  • Have you ever?

    I haven’t done this in quite a while…so bear with me, I kinda forget how it’s done…. Have you ever made love with the rain pouring down?Dripping off the leaves of the trees as you touch and kiss. Heard the sound of a lonely wolf cry for it’s mate,While wrapped in the arms of your…

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  • Ok, I think..

    Ok, so it’s been a while since I touched on the subject of growing up…but here goes… “Chapter 2” Making a dragon…. So, I’ve spoken here about abuse a bit. The truth is a bit hard sometimes…but..here goes. When I was 5, mom married my step-dad, I hated him on sight. I know what you’re…

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  • And so on..

    Ewwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!! I am so damn tired of it all!! Am I gonna quit? Fuck no! We’ve already established my “bring it on, hit me more” attitude…but damn, how about a knock out punch already you son of a bitch? That’s all for now…I’m just tired..(sighs)

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  • Almost..not quite though.

    Alright life, you absolute heartless son of a bitch…you almost had me…again. I was almost ready to give up. Fuck off. Try again. You’ve sent me obstacles and temptation before but nothing like lately…the past six months have been struggle after struggle..obstacle after obstacle. I’ve made wrong choices..I’ve made wrong decisions…but. I’m.. Still… Standing… So…

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  • Peace..

    I came to a sudden realization today with one text message…it was nothing most people would consider mind boggling or eye opening in what it said…anyone could have said it… It was how it made me feel. Teddy bear…oh God babe….you’re it. What I don’t think I made clear in the post about going to…

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  • I suck.

    This sucks, he sucks, we sucks…. So, Saturday night, “teddy bear” texts to tell me he’s not well. Meh..big deal, right? I basically told him I was sorry to hear it (I was) and went about my evening. Yesterday, around noontime, he textes me again…he’s got Covid…not just Covid, but pneumonia from it. Ok, now…

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  • Day one..page one..chapter one.

    So I promised some of you that I’d do this. I’m also promising you that these posts are gonna be jumbled and no where in any kind of order. When I look back on my life..I don’t remember a time when someone want manipulative and evil. There was always someone and wanted me for thie…

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  • To my teddy bear…

    Last night was the best night’s sleep I got in years, I am so sorry I snored. (You do too by the way., lol). When I texted you last night…and asked to come over, I never in a million years expected you text me back with your address. I really didn’t expect myself to jump…

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